Someone made a poem for me. Here it is..
Beginning and End
In everything that would happen
I'll expect a beginning and an end.
For everything has its own way of showing up,
and a peculiar way of leaving you out
I don't know who to trust nor to believe
because in just a matter of time that person might leave
True, a lot of people wear their own masks,
Just like in a play where they're one of the cast
Would you do the same thing?
Would you just forget everything?
Will you know me now, then not anymore tomorrow?
Will these happy moments turn into sorrow?
You've been there during the times I never expected.
And when I knew you, I always look ahead
You're my confidant though we hardly know each other
Im trusting you and hope this would continue further.
Yes, what we have now might also reach its end.
But there's one thing to myself I have said.
It's "If you make me feel important and happy,
there's no reason for me to regret you being part of me"
March 31, '07
Quotes made by Kat..
"
I hate it how waiting for you makes me hopeful and hopeless at the same time.""I hate the way I'll always be there for you, waiting for the day you'll come up to me and ask if I could be your shoulder to cry on""I hate it how every stupid song I hear makes me think of you""I hate the way I see you all the time yet still can't find the courage to say hello"Quotes from the book Realm of Possibilities:
"
One day I will wake up and he won't be there. He will disappear as he appeared and I will cry like a death foretold. Part of what I feel for him is missing him. Part of what I know is that distance is as hard as it is easy.""I should talk to him. I know I should talk to him but I do not talk to him. I watch him from afar and love him."
"See this scream--it's for you See this hurt--it's by you See this mark--it's from you but you don't see, no you don't see"
"I know this is how the world works. It would be funny if it wasn't my heart. She is the weakness you think of as strength, while I am the strength, you have no idea what is there."
"I don't want to be with him constantly and forever. I want to be with him for the moment, and I want the moments to go on forever."
"Despite all the thoughts that run through your head, you're never really ready to let, are you?"
"...because it is senior year, I have begun too see things as potential absences. The things I love will become the things I'll miss. I don't know how to use this negative sight."
Death
Coleen F. Valdez
Sometimes I want to sleep and never wake up,
I want to run and find my way out,
I want to break out and lose my bearings,
I want to drown myself and never ask for help,
I want to fall and never stand,
I want to bang my head and never stop,
I want to pass out and never get back to life,
I want to live but never breathe,
Sometimes I just want to pop off for I am to defenseless to
succeed, too spiritless to conquer and
to gutless to survive.
I know I don't have your heart, that's why I'm thorn apart.
But i quietly imagine that I might, someday, see you knocking
on my door.
You've said enough, you've done too much but I'm holding fast
coz I want my love to last.
You've broken my heart many times but here I am asking for a
glimmer of hope.
I dont have everything she has but what I have is enough to
show you life, love and eternity.
You're always near to me yet so far and though you're voiceless
I can hear you loud and clear.
I'm broken because of you and there's no way I can get the
pieces back together.
I'm lost forever coz you'll love me never.
The sweetness of your face, the tenderness of your voice,
the charm of your eyes and the warmth of your
hug...you simply take my breath away.
Though the pain kills me, I have to live coz,
I'm living for your love.
They say it's difficult
>to turn your back to someone whom you really want to be with
>to be pathetic to someone whom you always want to sympathize with
>to let someone feel that she is neglected when in fact she's very important
>to show someone that you don't mind them when in fact you care a lot
>to pretend not to know what she's up to when in fact you know her and her details
>to avoid someone when in fact you want to take a stolen glance
>to find reasons for doing things you dont usually do when in fact she's really the reason for doing so
>to treat someone like an ordinary being when in fact she's really special
>to let someone realize that her presence is
naturally welcomed when in fact it creates an
extraordinary excitement
>to say things contrary to what you feel
>to laugh aloud when in fact you want to cry your
heart out
>to set someone free when you feel she's all you
have and she's the only one you really love
>to pretend you're not hurt when she's with someone when in fact you cry deep inside
>to keep your feelings from someone when in fact
you want to show it
>to runaway when in fact you want to stay
THEY SAY IT'S DIFFICULT.. TO LET YOU KNOW
YOU'RE THAT SOMEONE IM TALKING ABOUT
Hardest thing in love
1. Flashing your smile to someone you dont want to see
2. Bringing back the feeling you've learned to forget
3. Showing that you care
4. Finding a way to mend a broken heart
5. Learning that you've been used by someone you truly love
6. Saying "I Love You" when you mean it and he dont
7. Letting go of a person you've just learn to forget
8. Realizing that you love somebody you've just taken for granted
9. Realizing that you love the person you've just broken up with
10. Waiting for promises you know he'll never keep
11. Saving your love for someone who love somebody else
12. Reminiscing the good times you share together
13. Shielding your heart to love somebody
14. Trying to hide what you really feel
15. Having a commitment with someone that you knew would not last
16. Trying to hide the tears that involuntary fall from your eyes
17. Sharing the one you love with someone else
18. Loving a person too much
19. Giving up someone you never taught of giving up
20. Falling in love for the first time
21. Loving someone you haven't seen
22. Having the right love at the wrong time
23. Exerting effort to make the relationship last or work
24. Not being appreciated when you know you've given your best
25. Taking the risk of falling in love again
26. Hiding your relationship with someone else
27.Choosing between two persons whom you really love
28. Finding out that you can never have the person you've just let go
29. Seeing the person you love with someone else
30. Hiding you true feeling to your friend
P.S. These are not my works. I just got them I think in teentalk. I just didn't have the real name of the author, it's my fault by the way. I say this so as not to plagiarize. :)
Sana hindi na lang naimbento ang GM. Sana wala na lang un sa cellphone.Paano kung may hinihintay kang text? Ang text na manggagaling sakanya? Na siya mismong kukumpleto sa gabi mo? kukumpleto sa pasko mo? Ay nareceive mo ngaGM naman. May saya parin naman, pero un nga lang, hindi buo.. Parabang nilubos na ng panahon, tinuluyan na ko. Hindi talaga nakumpletopasko ko. Gusto ko mang isiping na-delay lang ang message kong ni-reply sakanya,para bang hindi na makatotohanan kung iisipin ko pa un hanggang ngayon.Siguro nga hindi talaga para sakin ang araw na to..
"Merry christmas. Sana nagingmasaya ang christmas mo. Thanks sa lahat lahat. Sorry din nung minsangnawala ang communication natin sa isa't isa. Love you, friend."
Thanks sa lahat ng nag-greet. Sobrang naappreciate ko un. :)
"Bago pa ko maunahan ng lahat. MERRY CHRISTMAS.ü and thanks for everything.ükisses from monique.ü" -Monica Ponce
"Meri xmas." "rikaAa!ü dalawang taon n tyng magkatx! haha. Meri xmas.ü""Mer xmas. =)" "Eto na.. 12 na e. ü meri chrstmas s yo! =) magpakasaya taung lhat.ü -Patrick Flores
"Erika!ü Merry christmas!ü i love you.ü" "awh.ü i miss you too.ü patitelebabad moments naten nun,ü" -Desa Baking
"Hi.ü merry christmas sau...:)" "Likewise! Lab u Labs. Hahahaü" -Chekay Espiritu
"Tnx din sa lahat at mewi xmas.ü" -Janina San Gabriel
"yow, lapit nang magkrismas. haha.ü enjoy tska magpakabusog. kalimutan muna ang mga diet ngaun. haha.ü" ":) pakasaya ka.ü - Jodie Tañedo
"merry christmas ekayü" "ikaw din. hahaü enjoy" "Labyou." -Maeka Manlapaz
"Merry christmas to you too.ü- Lance Canlas
"erika, merry christmas. Thanks sa lahat and sorry din. Sana maging nasaya christmas mo.ü God bless.ü""Merry xmas.ü haha.ü" -Pre Ramos
"Merry xmas!.ü love ya!. thanks at sori sa lahat.ü mwah.ü" "merry christmas!.luv ya!.mis ya!.ingat!.god bless!.ü slmat ha!. =] inuman na to!.wahoo!. >.<> gceng!.wla m22lg!..ü ? bt b my ngpa2putok?!. peste. di pa new yr?!mga tukmol ! >:]" -Ejhaey Banzon
"gandang gbe.ü maligayang pasko sa inyong lhat.ü sna matupad ang ating mga kahilingan ngaung pasko.. ingat kau at wag kalimutan mgcmba.ü lets share moments w/ God.ü" "hello. merry christmas.ü ingat." -Regine Garcia
"hui ik.. hehe.. xenxa ngyon lng acoh nkreply, gulo kc d2 sa bhay, bc bchan n nmn mga tao.. aun..merri xmas dn syo.. slmat dn s lhat2 tska pxenxa n rn s mga kaabnormalancoh mnsan.. lam mu nmn.. hehe.. aun, meri xmas ult.. muah..ü -Erika Butihi
"Mery chriztmaz din... Sna mgng very very hapy ka..." -Ardyan Alquinto
"Good evening!!!..merry christmas!!ü"- Jasmine Sarmiento
"merry christmas !! haha ü" "waaaa ! napu2tol tlga ! haha ü merry christmas ekai ko ! ü labyu !" - Aya Testa (note: tumawag siya ng 12 ng madaling araw. Dalawang beses un kaso naputol din ng dalawang beses.)
"Merry xmas poh. . .mhal k p kau. . .mwuah hugz nd take cre!"- Miko Gloria
"Merry christmas to you and your loved ones.. Godbless! :-)"- Ate Che
"Advance merry christmas! my gft kyo noh!? ung amin din hah!? enjoy din kayo.." "ahaha kakatouched nman, couz! thanks din"- ChaCha Reyes
",.ei... Guyz... Merry Christmas poh... More blessings to come nd wishing you to have a gud health... Naks nkpg-english din... Hehehe..."-KrengKreng
"yan! merry christmas! xori ngaun lng ako reply! hahaü"- Marge Lim
"MERRY CHRISTMAS© by lizza..ü ™ üAll Rights Reserved®December 2006.."- Lizza Pascual
"Ui! Merry Christmas! Ingat kau parate kung san man kau punta.ü Salamat sa lahat lahat lahat lahat!ü Lab yu! Ingat! Meri xmas ulet!ü Enjoi!ü-bernie.ü"-Bernie Quintan
"Uy! Hello! Merry xmas!"- Ate Marei
"Parang gus2 kong maiyak s msg mo ah.he3.touched ako. ok lng kht mkulit kyo,snay n ako.tnx s greetings! Meri xmas 2 u & ur family!ü"- Ms. Suico
"Ikaw din, dear.ü merry Christmas, erika.ü"- Rona Po
"Merry xmas..üüü sory nga pla s mga ntryn at nsktan ko..thnk u sa mga tym na shnare nyo s akn..uhmm.. bsta may d spirit of xmas b w/ u nd ur family..ü- Miri Cavaneyro
"Maligayang Christmas!"- Roren Araullo
"erika. Nasan na c macho santa? mbwaha. merry christmas, maylab i wish you and your family a merry christmas. tss. la na aku msbe. cge. aylabyu."- Avery Anatalio
"ekai! waaaa! Merry Christmas! Haha! grabe. 4 yrs na tyong magkkaklase!haha! aion, thankyou sa pagiging mabait na kaibigan. thankyou sa lhat2 na tulongmo saken. hehe. sana maging masagana ang iyong pasko! Merry Christmas! Haylabyu!=)"- Michelle Garcia
"Merry xmas!"- Carissa Caparas
"Merry christmas!!=D"-Jo Laurora
"HAPPY CHRISTMAS TO EVERYONE! I LOVE YOU ALL!!!- Rizia Margate
"Merry christmas din.ü haha. Tanx din sa lahat!"- Amabel Africa
"ui. merry xmaz saio, ska sa family mo as wel. :p thank u for being a nice friend. may u have moreblessings to come. :) Godblez.! Lovelotz, dianne.ü"-Kristine Calantuan
"MERRY XMAS!!! sna masaia ang xmas ng iniong mga families! wg kalimutang mgcmba!pkbusog s mga noche buena! at tnx s lhat ng nggreet! wabyu guys!"- Pamie Cruz
"Erika! Merry christmas!ü. Salamat sa lhat! As in sbra. Salamat sa pgtago ng mgasecrets ko lalo na ung kei ........ü. Ikw na lng kc pngkktiwalaan ko sa service kea ok lng na ikwento ko xeo.ü. Un.ü. Mery christmas!"-Germaine Redublado
"merry christmas.ü"-Trixie Hermogenes
"ekai, meri xmas. salamat sa lht. salamat at TOTOO kang kaibigan.ü"-Eury Silvestre
"ekai, rona, lourdes, merry christmas! (:"- Khristine del Rosario
So there. Whew.
Na-inspired ako mag-update nito dahil sa nabasa ko sa teentalk. Oh well, its all about
Pretending. Drama queen ka ba? Ako, minsan. Pag kailangan. Pag nahihirapan ipakita ung tunay na ako, dahil alam ko hindi lahat ng oras tanggap ako ng lahat ng mga taong nakapaligid saken. Minsan iba ung pagkakakilala nila saken. Minsan may pagkakamali. Ngayon, unti-unti ko ng natututunan maging ako. Yung totoong ako, ung walang pakialam sa sasabihin ng iba. Dahil
nagbago na ko. Hindi ko alam may feelings pala ako na kaya kong mahalin yung sarili ko.
"When I took the pills, i wanted to kill someone I hated. I didn't know that other Veronikas existed inside me. Veronikas that I could love" - Veronika Decides to Die
i hate every little things about myself. it "sucks"
